10/26/2006

Can't stop

Hi anyone...

I know I should be posting my take on the 'debriefing the boys' blog but I have a job interview tomorrow so am doing some last minute cramming - don't have time to blog tonight - sorry.

Vic_Voy

10/21/2006

Videos and more videos

Dudetube

A site I visit almost daily. This site is technically so well created it could almost be professional (although if it was I wouldn't be a visitor!!). A VAST array of screen grabs from all over the 'net and a multitude of amateur videos. He also uses the site to expresses his love for Comic books and comic book based art.

Originally this site was on my primary list. I would visit daily and I would watch all the videos and look at all the screen captures from the various sites Matt must have memberships to. He has a prolific posting regime, rarely misses as day and if you haven't seen the post for a few days do not expect to be able to catch up just be looking at the main post - a delve into the archives will be required.

Initially I LOVEd this site - here was a guy taking all the effort out of searching x-tube and porntube etc to find interesting vids and his captures of the guys with cams and fratpad images are really cool. This saves me time and effort which is a good thing because I am not always able to spend as much time as I would like on the 'net. I respect his diligence and professionalism when releasing the screen grabs and the videos - awesome work!

Of late, however have found myself visiting less often. When I am there I tend to scan the videos looking for something of interest, Which for me means something different from all the standard solo jerk off videos - the recent fleshlight series of vids was a particular favourite.
The fratpad and other pay site images are superb quality thumbnails gathered together in one image, they really give a flavour of the guys on these sites. BUT, and here is my main reason for Dudetube not being as high up my favourite list as it once was, it feels like I am reading advertising or product placement! I don't think it is and to his credit Matt does kinda give a brief reason why he likes each of the sites and the specific captures or guys, but it still has that preview tour about it. Placed in a high traffic blog merely to entice you into the sites for more.

Maybe he is on commission (or free memberships! 8-) if not it might be worth contacting the providers and entering negotiations!! Haha). The links do not look like affiliate links of any sort so I although if he is, this is not necessarily a bad thing and I say good luck to him - he certainly deserves some recognition and recompense for the effort puts into the blog.

My overall main gripe (too strong a word - niggle is better) with dudetube though is that I know very little about the actual blogger, his day, his frustrations or traumas, his likes or dislikes are a mystery to me. I can't connect with him.

Am I outgrowing amateur porn vids? Don't think so although I try to watch them on fast forward or jump though the vid manually. I do this with almost all my porn vids, even the professional ones - strange but true!! Am outgrowing pics of cute/handsome, hot boys - NO! but am I finding the blogs of real people and their highs and lows more enjoyable than watching another solo JO vid - Yep, most definitely, I am.

If you need a portal to gay imagery and videos - Is this is the place for you? In my opinion and this is based on the limited number of blogs have visited so far, I would have to say YES, YES, YES. Enjoy the eye candy but don't try to see too deeply into the life of the blog poster it ain't gonna happen.

It will remain on my fav blog list and I will try to visit daily if only to see what this blog should technically aspire to.

10/19/2006

Chaos theory

Following on from last nights post - Micifus was given his log subscrition by the guy who basically brought out of the closet (moaning and groaning in rapture if you believe the stories).
This guy has a blog called Chaos. Real name Steve, he also blogged under stevethetreat at one time before moving to typepad.

Chaos is a high flyer who shares his life with the blog reader, warts and all. The writing style is clear and generally concise (unlike this shit!). He doesn't go in for the flowery romance stuff and is more of a - we met, we shagged, my bum still tingles - kinda writer.

Sometimes I read his blog with envy and in awe of what he does (not just the sex but the whole lifestyle, even down to his macrobiotic eating regime) in his day to day existence.
Sometimes I read and find myself appreciating what he has gone through to get to where he is. Sometimes I read and I am dismayed at his arrogance, and his lack of empathy for other humans.
Sometimes I read and am amazed at how much he will put himself out for others.
Sometimes I read and worry aboout his proclivity for younger men, his perchant to buy them expensive gifts and his self confessed admission that anyone over 23 is too old for him.

But despite the misgivings and worries I have about what he is doing to himself and others and to some degree what kind of person does it make me to want to read about it - I READ.

The blog is at times joyous, indulgent, revealing, depressing, dismal, enlightening and even educational but it is always interesting.

There is an added spice to reading the chaos blog and this is founded in the fact that many of his circle of friend and aqcuaintances also blog. to see a story or dialogue from two differing views and personalities gives it veracity and a solid feeling of truth. Chaos sits in the middle of a spiders web of acquaintance and friends who flow in and out of his life (and bed) with remarkable regularity. He seems to manage them all with almost machievellian control and they seem to be under the spell of this sucessful, confident and magnetic personality.

Not sure if he and I would actually like each other should we ever converse or meet (highly unlikely) I'd be too staid for him - he'd be too wild for me and neither of us would probaby want to invest the time in getting to know each other - that's what blogs are for.

10/18/2006

E-mail test

Micifus - Youth in all its glory!

I am not going to add too much to my other posts at
this moment. This is merely a test e-mail. That said
I have to tell you that my curent blog du jour (a blog
I check at least once per day) is http://Micifus.typepad.com .

(This is the blog of an 18(?)year old college freshman
who is in the process of 'coming out'. He engages in
NSA sex (No Strings Attached) and writes in a very
natural manner about his relationships with the other
college freshmen, his roommate, Cali his current sex
buddy and his family.

What makes this even more interesting for the voyeur
like me is that he started blogging after the guy who
took his virginity gave him the account as a
graduation present. I will be discussing his blog
next.

Micifus (Phil) does not place gratuitous pictures all
over his blog although in my opinion he could probably put
more up - just to colour in the life he describes so well in
his blog.

He is obviously a little wary (of placing pictures currently as
he has previously posted images that, following a comment from one of his viewers/readers
regarding the possible misuse of the images, as he has since removed them (more's the pity I say). What images there are are fully clothed and scene setting rather than porn or exhibitionism. which is a refreshing (nice - who the hell uses nice? - I am a retard) change.

He is a college swimming scholar and has used his insider knowledge to tell a fantasy
lockeroom story. The mental images were good but unfortunately it wasn't quite
believeable enough and had me, as the reader, shouting 'yeah right - that can't be true' which breaks the illusion and kinda spoiled the story for me slightly.

Phil's greatest assets, as far as I am concerned, are his descriptions of the whole comming out experience. His burgeoning relationship with Cali on the one hand offset his near catastrophic reationship with his family (coming out to his Polish, Cathollic family is an episode I hope he shares with us all - Therein lies a powerful and no doubt emotional story!!)

I find myself returning to the blog on a regular basis to get more history, I am not content with knowing about the here and now good though that is. I am equally interested in how he found his gay/bisexual preferences and how did he pursue them? why did his parents put a curfew on him? how did he meet Chaos? How did he feel going for his first gay sexual experience? what was the reason for choosing Chaos? - proximity? desire? availibility? There are so many stories that would add colour and texture to the current ebb and flow of his life and as long as he keeps sharing then I'll keep watching. Vicariously Voyeuristic!

P.S. Do NOT like the layout created by e-mail submission but needs must when the devil drives - so apologies for design and layout - I could spend time fixing it but then whe would I have time to check all the blog's I am watching? Spelling mistakes are like shit - they happen and like dogshit on the pavement they are best ignored and walked around. If you would like to politely bring it to the owners attention he may use the spelling equivalent of the pooper scooper and clean the mess right up although don't count on it.

This keyboard is fucking awful and no that is not an excuse (yes it is! and it is a bad one at that). I fancy dictation (stoppit - fithy minds!) no I mean I fancy using Nuance dictation software to write my blog as I speak it - that would be cool. Ahh, problem - not sure its vocabulary includes fellatio, blow job, jerk off, fuck, shit, arsehole, wank, boyhole etc and I know I want to use them in my blog somewhere (oh I already have!! haha!!)

Bollox - it is too late and I must be getting delirious.

10/16/2006

Do I talk crap? or what?

Having just re-read the previous post you can tell it was late! I delivered the BC review (?) with so much sickly sweet sugar that it could blacken your teeth just reading it.

BrentCorriganOnline did introduce me to the Blogging world and he does have a great body, but that does not make me so blind that I can't see his ultimate goal is to attain professional and financial independence and wouldn't we all in the same situation? In order to achieve this I feel that sometimes he tweaks the incidents, stories and activities to show there best light, ignoring or forgetting the stuff that shows him in a bad light.

This is what we all do and I wouldn't condem him for it. Looking back allows us 20-20 vision to review events and this, then allows us to employ selective blindness and forgetfulness, generally in our favour.

His site led me to investigate other blogs and I will review (?) them as we travel along.

10/15/2006

Who is to blame?

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Here's the history!

So where did it start? What made you start looking at blogs of people who seemed keen on sharing the most intimate details of their sex lives and relationship issues? Simple answer is I don't know. I have always pushed my boundaries when 'sex surfing'. Checking out female sex sites is now so easy, there are so many of them and if I get caught - so what. It is what red blooded males do.

It started with downloading images from the newsgroups (in the early days using a modem!! Yes I am THAT old!) and after searching and viewing alt.binaries.female.pictures etc. First it was just naked pics of women then I found myself viewing more and more pictures of intercourse.

Not for the hard-on (although that was an interesting and sometimes satisfying side affect) I found myself looking at other men’s cocks, their size, shape, girth and usability - not recognising this at first, I continued to trawl my way through grainy pictures on the net (for some reason completely ignoring mainstream female pornographic literature I might add).

Some of the pictures had Bulletin board addresses so I'd look them up - log on and leech like crazy whenever possible. Later, I was able to visit web addresses that were listed on the pics. I have seen so many tours and previews it is laughable. I have never signed up to a porn site and I doubt I ever will - what can they show me that I can't get off the net? Soon enough female/male pics became uninteresting - female/female didn't hold the same fascination but the odd one that showed female/male/male partnerships gave me a new buzz.

Alt.binaries.male.pictures was calling - off I went... This had everything I wanted - Pictures of men’s cocks, of course but also man on man images. These images were hot and they also carried the inherent danger that came with possessing these pictures, the risk of being caught downloading them and the risk of keeping them in a household that would not understand the concept of they are only pictures and I am not gay.

Why I like to look at cocks, male sex etc I am sure will be covered in future posts - this is the history lesson not psychology so I won't go into it yet.

Many fruitful years of downloading, looking at and generally deleting the images led me onto teh next stage downloading videos, videos that would now be kicked off you tube for being too poor quality were my first foray into the world of gay film pornography.

Unfortunately, newsgroups began to become censored by many ISP's and the only way to get the binaries was to pay specialist providers - I DON'T DO THAT.

The web was more fully available (still modems in UK though) and lots of interesting searches eventually brought my attention to a few sites that were basically the first amateur attempts to produce what has become a major part of the porn industry - the webcam site. I will discuss them at a later date as well. AJBoy and Hot boy stick in my memory for some reason!! (I think I still have some of their pics and videos on a CD somewhere!)

Along comes the new revolution - Broadband -- DSL --big fat pipes with unlimited download (within reason!) A new world of downloading. PC at home - no more downloading at work and sneaking them out on floppies/tapes (yep I used 4mm DAT to transfer files at one point - geek alert!)

Always on downloads meant - peer to peer file sharing - limewire, e-mule, bit torrent all played a part in establishing a collection of gay porn second to none. Much of it still exists on DVD's and the older stuff is on DLT tapes -much of BEL AMI's back catalogue is in numerous AVI's and MPG's ranging from 100mb per part to the full film at DVD standard 4.7Gb.

All hidden away.
All no longer watched.
All a waste of time and bandwidth.
All great fun to obtain and watch (generally in fast forward I have to admit - will discuss this later! - familiar statement eh?)

Hstory over.

10/13/2006

A journey of 1000 miles starts with one step.

1st Step..... what to write? The premise behind this venture into fairly modern technology is basically self serving. I am going to use this little area as my getaway, my confessional, my therapist and my confidante. All my dirty little secrets will be brought out along with any dirty washing or skeletons in the cupboards or even things that are in the closet!! who knows where this will take me - come along for the ride (or write me off as a pretentious dick and don't visit again!)

This is going to be an anonymous posting arena in the first instance because sometimes to liven up my hum drum I do naughty things - look at porn on the net (not very often!), download films and programs and reading material etc through eMule, read other peoples blogs, especially if they are younger than me and less inhibited and quite willing to share their life (in words and pictures only of course) with me.


  1. Am I going to use this as a diary - don't think so!
  2. Am I going to use this as a ranting, get it off my chest style therapy session -sometimes definitely
  3. Am I going to use it to give something back to the blogging community - definitely, although they may not want it!! Not sure if anyone will want it!
  4. Am I going to post often - as often as I can.
  5. Am I going to post pics - if appropriate.
  6. Am I going to post Pics of me - Never (and believe me that is a kindness to you all).
  7. Am I going to look at world issues, politics and the deeper meaning of life - probably not.
  8. Am I going to look into what I do and why and seek some meaning in it - Yep, that is the raison d'etre (ooh french!!!) of this blog.

Is this just going to be a list of blogs I look at - hopefully not, I will try to make some judgement about the content, give MY views, what I like and don't like etc.

It is highly likely that no-one will even see this first entry in the blog but I want something to refer back to - call it a mission statement. I will not be tied to it to the detriment of the blog but if I don't have a starting point how will I know how far I have travelled.

As I travel this road I will probably share more about myself than it is safe too. I will probably upset some (hopefully not too many - I don't expect many people will want to read it anyway!! Cut the self pity crap - ed.).

Much of what you will read will be of a sexual nature (not mine - hence the blog name) but be assured if you are 18 or younger - this is not for you. If you have hang ups about sexuality and the discussion and portrayal of it in all it's forms this might not be for you either.

Open mided people always welcome.

I won't make this too long for all our sakes!! Here we go guys (and gals).

P.S. Do not expect the blog to remain static - I will be learning how to do all the stuff I see on other blogs - different templates, videos, pics, links etc. Wish me luck!